Getting used to my new life

Time has sped up and as my work life takes place in front of a PC, I tend to ignore my own after work.
Good news first: I'm getting used to my work.
Bad news last: I managed to make a small error with really big effects just yesterday. As it might affect clients I'm really upset about this. Fortunately my boss supports me and doesn't seem to mind too much.  (He brought cake for everyone today.)

Still, I'm lonely and my telephone bill is rising and rising...

I'll try to post more. Hope you are well and healthy and enjoying early spring.
Greetings.

Comen on, Spring!

Recent  developments:

- Work is going smoother and smoother, but I still need much more to learn.
- The weather finally decided to get warmer and much more spring like.
- I had some Japanese friends over in Germany and could train my Japanese much more than usual.
- I like exploring Munich and see much more of it every time I make it into the city.

Hope you have a great 'Spring Break'!
Greetings!

Some things I did this weekend

Knitting, a photo by Chisa2010 on Flickr.

Sorry for being rather silent lately. I totally want and need to write more often and regularly.

Today I planned on doing a post about "Seven things Sunday", something a German blogger, I like very much, does most weekends. (See her blog here.)
Unfortunately, I didn't manage to do 7 different, interesting things. I did some stitching, reading and then got hooked on knitting again. Even though spring has finally sprung in Germany. Thank God.

The wool is just fabulous (and was unbelievable expensive. I got one skein from my good friend, whom I left in Heidelberg.). It has silver threads woven into blue dyed wool. Really, really nice.

Wish you a good start into spring!
Greetings.

Spring's messenger

This cute little guy had a little accident with our front door. Poor cutie! At first glance I thought he might be dead - lying on the ground all twisted wing and feathers. I picked him up and couldn't do much more than stroking his soft feathers. He was back to his lively self shortly after and flew off.

Tolerance

To the guy who thinks he is so funny,

You are totally getting on my nerves. You're the sort of guy who will make fun of other people and what they're doing, what they've learnt and expect them to find it funny, too. (That includes me.)
Then, when we don't oblige, you will tell us that we're not tolerant, not funny and way too serious.

Well, I'm really sorry. But for border-crossing of your kind I'm too precious to myself. I've spent way too many years enduring guys like you just to be accepted. And the sad truth: I never was!

So, I've decided some years ago to be the way I am. If I don't wanna laugh - I'm not laughing.

And I don't live to please men like you.

I just live to please me and to feel good with myself. If I can do that, I'll be able to be happy and funny with my friends and loved ones. And that is what counts. Not what you think I should or shouldn't do.

Thought you oughta know.

Where movies are wrong...

I don't mean the Happy Ending. I really love a Happy Ending. The hero and heroine overcame all obstacles and finally found each other. They can finally seal their bound of happiness (in whatever way and be it just a kiss).
But then...the movie is over and we never find out how it actually worked afterwards.
Movies tell us that change is good and new beginnings are happy and favorable circumstances indeed.

Well, yes, they are. But still, the movie shouldn't end there. It should show that life afterwards is also hard. Maybe even harder in the beginning. Changing who you are and starting new somewhere else is a big enterprise for sure.

Light on the Horizon

My days in Heidelberg are over.
I returned the keys to my room in my shared apartment yesterday. Today the new girl moved in. She's really nice and all, but even tough we had a prior agreement that I could leave some of my stuff here for the next month as she is away for an internship, she changed her mind and asked me to remove my stuff as soon as possible.
Which totally threw me into a panic.
I have no car. I don't even have a real, permanent living place yet. I am totally in panic and pissed off, that she - as soon as she had the keys to my (now ex-)room was throwing me out. This is so typical Germany! Don't ever believe what you get promised here. If you don't have it on paper and signed - it is not valid.
Another proof that I am way too nice to most people around me. Or too naive. Or both. Most likely both.
So I started to throw away things that are perfectly in working order.
I would rather give them away - but no one really wants "old stuff" around here either.
Take my printer - it has a scanner and copy function, too - but is way too bulky to carry around and take with me by train.
Lots of bags (I'm a girl.) - gone.
One floor lamp and a desk lamp - gone.
Some books and magazines I wanted to read (I swear!) - gone.
Several pairs of shoes (one of which I'd bought in Japan) - gone.
Two pillows - gone.
Several pieces of kitchen equipment - gone. (At least I left those in the apartment kitchen.)
Old clothes - gone.
Old cosmetic stuff - gone.

For someone who lost a parent very early in life, letting go of so much stuff at once is really a hard thing and I've been eating chocolate the whole day. Letting alone the feeling of leaving something as precious behind as something called "home".

Yes. I admit it. Even though I always compared Heidelberg to my beloved Marburg and it always lost, I feel really odd now. I really feel the loss. Again. The same feeling I had when leaving Marburg behind. (I didn't really mention it before: I studied in Marburg for six years. And it's a magical place. Will show you pictures later.)

I don't feel at home yet at my new place. I just feel ... lonely. And I really hate this feeling. Even though I have confidence in conquering this and make this place my home, too, it is not going to be an easy task.

If anyone reading this has some tips about dealing with new places and finding new people to have fun with - be my guest and comment on this post, please.

Greetings!